It might be a little early for a review of 2015 but I had the urgent need to write my following thoughts down. This year was or rather is the year of friendships for me. I learnt to appreciate friendship and what a gift it is to have friends with whom I feel connected with and understood.
I just realized a couple of days ago how amazing it is to know that I have friends in Germany who are actually waiting for me and think of me.
As well I am always happy if I receive a lovely message from one of my friends I have made on my journey. I appreciate it a lot. It is an amazing feeling! I just realize it…
The appreciation of friendship
I don’t know exactly what happened why I got this overwhelming feeling and realized how great it is to have friends with whom I feel connected and understand. It suddenly hit me and opened my heart and I understood. Maybe it had something to do that we are getting closer to Christmas. But probably more due to my lovely friends send me pictures with themselves or a Adventskranz and say that they would think of me...
I told one of my roommates how much I appreciate to have friends who are waiting for me in Germany.
When I spoke it out I was close to cry but I swallowed it down. I am thankful for this moment because it showed me it is high time to see my friends again and that there are many emotions connected with them... Instead of crying I showed to him my travel book. One of my best friends made for me before I left Germany in January 2014. We looked together through it. I realized even more how much I miss my friends and how great it is to know them.
I left Germany 2 years ago and it is 2 years ago that I haven’t seen some of my friends and family members.
One of my best friends has now a baby boy and the second child is on its way. I am very happy for him and so excited to see his family soon! Another friend of mine brought a house with her boyfriend and moved in recently. I hope I can visit her when I come back in the end of February. And me, I changed from a logical and rational thinking IT-consultant for banks to an open-minded Yoga teacher who appreciates simplicity. I actually became more me again. And my friends are still my friends
I added more lovely friends to my life during my journey. Some I have met again on my journey. I feel connected with them and understood.
In 2 years many things can happen. I left Mexico in May 2015 and I live since than in Barcelona. But it feels like I left Mexico just 2 month ago and there is no day I am not thinking of it...
It was right to come back to Europe – a quick review
It was right to come back to Europe. I wanted to be closer to my family and friends but far enough from Germany. I wanted to practice Spanish. And I needed a break from travelling and I wanted to see how it is after such a long time to be back in Europe. And I needed money again. Probably if I really wanted I had found something in Mexico but I felt very homesick after 1,5 years of travelling.
Also I wanted to find out what I could do until I would have one day my healing center (that's my biggest wish since I left Mexico). And I wanted to overcome my fear to start as entrepreneur and I wanted to save up money even I had no clue in the beginning for what exactly.
Hatelove - take chances and choices in Barcelona
Barcelona wasn’t my first choice. It was the easiest way to get a job. It was a decision I made from my head and from fear. It wasn’t from my heart. It was just easy.
What is my job like? It’s a CallCenter job where we have to answer calls of clients who are asking where there order would be, when finally their money would be paid back etc. The conditions are very ehm.. interesting... Actually it the whole thing is quite funny.
They just forbid us to look on our cell phones during work and they said they will cut your bonus if you come 3 times more than 3 minutes too late… Ehm yess. Also the break for using the toilet is limited per day. Using it too much will effect your bonus as well. So you need to be fast. Actually I use the bathroom quite often due to I drink lots of water for my health. So goodbye bonus! Well, I know it is complaining on a high level in comparison to other countries and jobs and for sure if I consider the job situation in Spain I cannot complain at all... And I could change but I don't and I am moving on soon. Well excuses.
However, I will stop complaining now.
I really like the people in my team and my work schedule is ok. Well. after work I am mostly not able to do anything anymore and just want silence. So when I give my Yoga classes in the evening this is something what really full-fills me. Seeing people smiling and relaxed. If I see their relaxed faces, then I know I did alright. I love it.
Everything depends on how we see things and what we wish
Anyway, here in Barcelona I could find out what I would do until I will have a healing center which is my dream. I can save up some money. I’m closer to my friends and family. I could practice my Spanish (not as much as I wanted but at least I can). I started as an entrepreneur and tried out some projects.
Everything depends on how we see things and what we wish. Actually I got everything what I wanted. Well sometimes are the things we want not the things we really need or what our hearr needs.
Even I hate my CallCenter job it pays my bills, allows me to save up money and to give regular Yoga classes. And I have know a lot of compassion for everyone who is doing this kind of work.
And let me tell you something if you are calling a CallCenter:
If you are starting to get rude or setting the agent under pressure, it will lead to nothing but making your life less happy. Be nice and friendly and it comes back to you and the agent will help you for sure. Also keep that in mind if you are writing an email to the support department.
My definition of Home
Well, the idea about this post was actually that I just wanted to say how much I appreciate that I have lovely friends. I cannot say it often enough. I am very grateful to have friends who support me and believe in me and are there for me. I really love them. I wish them all the best from my heart and I'm looking forward to seeing them soon.
Thank you so much that you guys support me and encourage me on my way!
Maybe that is what it is like to come home. I always say that I still haven't found a place what I can call home. Maybe home is where we have friends who are waiting for you. I think this is my definition of home...
Home is where I can be myself and people accept me like I am. Obviously I needed 2 years of traveling to come to that point. Travel to come closer...
Thanks for reading my story! Lots of love.